June 30, 2007

between our trees, the ears they hear

Filed under: writing — admin @ 7:23 am

We were all for
Gathering stories about the city
Hodge podging them into one considerable epilogue
Hosting a focus on
The construction never finished
The thin line between firework pops and gun shots
The skunky beer some will still guzzle
One after another
Because it’s only 1 dollar
Grazianos and Pollock’s
Who chills the cheapest six pack
Who has the most tilt on pinball

Do we ever grow up?
I think the term
The concept
Is a longstanding myth
A story passed down
Maybe a hoax
This thing we wait for
Only to watch it fall away behind us
Like time in the palm
Fingers kind of closed
Just cupping air
A pretend for the gullible
For the chairs in the backyard
Filled with various backsides and stories
Always something more to tell
And one or two good enough to repeat
No one ever told me
I would want it so much
And only conquer wisps of it
If that, if any
If then, so what now—

I hope you remember your Saturdays
The ones that had nothing planned
The ones filled to the brim
The ones that kick off with the
“oh fuck what did I do last night’s”
the ones with morning sex
brunch sex
the way the sun looks on the grass that needs cut

the midnight hammocks under our eyes
my dear of dears we earned them
every
single
swing.

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June 29, 2007

to let it be known

Filed under: Uncategorized — admin @ 7:28 pm

It is my heart talking again; she snuck up in head and is tossing aside memories out of her way til she finds what she wants. Doesn’t know what she wants. Has fun looking through it all and leaving a mess, door kept wide open behind the pulsing silhouette. Back down to the cavern, quiet.

The best dream, the biggest want, is a life without a pain. A no longer for the always has been in my time. I just want to go somewhere without an escape plan, without pills in my bag. I want to be out for the whole time and not have to leave halfway through. I don’t want to miss out. This life sometimes does not seem about me anymore, but instead about how much I will hurt today compared to yesterday, and what pain waits for me tomorrow. I feel worn out just trying to keep up.

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June 27, 2007

if only things really worked that way..

Filed under: news — admin @ 6:02 am

Thief asks for “time out” in police chase

 

MANILA (Reuters) - Philippine police chased down an unfit thief on Tuesday after he ran out of breath and asked his pursuers for a “time out.”

“He was panting and gasping for air when we caught up with him after a 500 meter sprint,” Erwin Buenceso, one of the arresting officers, told local radio station dzBB.

Buenceso said the man and an accomplice broke into a house in the Philippine capital and stole two expensive mobile phones. Screams from the residence alerted a local police patrol, which gave chase.

The robber asked for a “time out” using hand signals.

After he regained his composure, police seized the two stolen phones and brought him to a station for questioning.

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June 24, 2007

qu’est-ce que c’est

Filed under: writing — admin @ 9:28 am

With our newsstand breath
And our tallyho mean-tos
We take our minds for dime-store dives
Trying it seems to taste
With arms that scent of lemon and you
The peppersweet stench of opposite sex sweat

You let the birds scare you
But you won’t let me in
The city doves with high-heeled pecks
The passing strangers get your grins the best
A minute in the blur
But you won’t let me in
We share cigarettes
Ideas
Gum
Fingers
Dirt
Worries
Space
But you won’t let me in
Our passport perspective
The summer, the crickets,
They miss you with me
We sing
Like bodies splitting wind
Our stand up slouch
The talks
Then gone
The words

Then pauses

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June 22, 2007

thanks to renee for passing along this article..

Filed under: Uncategorized — admin @ 6:46 am

  

The Prison Poets of Guantanamo Find a Publisher

Military Security Clears 22
After Checking for Code;
What’s Lost in Translation

By YOCHI J. DREAZEN
June 20, 2007; Page A1

Inmates at the U.S. military prison at Guantanamo Bay, Cuba, used pebbles to scratch messages into the foam cups they got with their meals. When the guards weren’t looking, they passed the cups from cell to cell. It was a crude but effective way of communicating.

The prisoners weren’t passing along escape plans or information about future terrorist attacks. They were sending one another poems.

For years, the U.S. military refused to declassify the poems, arguing that inmates could use the works to pass coded messages to other militants outside. But the military relaxed the ban recently and cleared 22 poems by 17 prisoners for public release.

An 84-page anthology titled “Poems From Guantanamo: The Detainees Speak” will be published in August by the University of Iowa Press, giving readers an unusual glimpse into the emotional lives of the largely nameless and faceless prisoners there.

“When I heard pigeons cooing in the trees/Hot tears covered my face,” Sami al Haj wrote in one poem. The al-Jazeera cameraman has been held at Guantanamo Bay since 2002 on suspicion of aiding Islamic militants. “When the lark chirped, my thoughts composed/A message for my son,” he went on.

The collection, translated from Arabic, was compiled by Marc Falkoff, a defense lawyer with a literary bent. Mr. Falkoff, who got a Ph.D. in English before he went to law school, represents 17 Yemeni prisoners at Guantanamo Bay, and he dedicated the book to his clients, describing them in the inscription as “my friends inside the wire.”

The approximately 380 prisoners at Guantanamo are being held indefinitely; just two have been charged with crimes. Military officials are dismissive of the inmates’ poetry, which they say is aimed at garnering public sympathy.

“While a few detainees at Guantanamo Bay have made efforts to author what they claim to be poetry, given the nature of their writings they have seemingly not done so for the sake of art,” says Cmdr. J.D. Gordon, a Defense Department spokesman. “They have attempted to use this medium as merely another tool in their battle of ideas against Western democracies.”

Mr. Falkoff’s involvement with Guantanamo Bay began in June 2004, shortly after the landmark Supreme Court decision in the case of Rasul v. Bush gave Guantanamo Bay inmates the right to challenge their detentions in federal courts. He has since made 10 visits to the prison. He has also traveled to Yemen to interview his clients’ relatives and friends.

In the summer of 2005, he received a poem with a religious theme from one of his clients, Abdulsalam Ali Abdulrahman al-Hela. A few weeks later, a second client, Adnan Farhan Abdul Latif, sent him a poem called “The Shout of Death.” Both men are accused of belonging to al Qaeda.

The two had included the poems in their regular letters to Mr. Falkoff, which are by military regulation first sent to a government facility near Washington to be reviewed by security officials. The two poems remain classified.

Intrigued, Mr. Falkoff emailed other Guantanamo Bay lawyers to ask whether any of them had clients who wrote poems. They did. Mr. Falkoff began putting together his collection.

[no] IS IT TRUE?

 

 

Is it true that the grass grows again after rain?
Is it true that the flowers will rise up again in the Spring?
Is it true that birds will migrate home again?
Is it true that the salmon swim back up their streams?

It is true. This is true. These are all miracles.
But is it true that one day we’ll leave Guantanamo Bay?
Is it true that one day we’ll go back to our homes?
I sail in my dreams. I am dreaming of home.

To be with my children, each one part of me;
To be with my wife and the ones that I love;
To be with my parents, my world’s tenderest hearts.
I dream to be home, to be free from this cage.

But do you hear me, oh Judge, do you hear me at all?
We are innocent, here, we’ve committed no crime.
Set me free, set us free, if anywhere still
Justice and compassion remain in this world!

– Osama Abu Kabir

Copyright © University of Iowa Press. Used with permission.

Writing poetry was both difficult and dangerous for the prisoners, who weren’t given pens or paper until 2003. Some former inmates say they used dabs of toothpaste as ink. Other inmates, including Moazzem Begg, a British citizen held at Guantanamo Bay until 2005, say they scratched their poems into foam cups with spoons or small stones. Like most of the approximately 395 inmates freed so far, Mr. Begg was never charged with a crime.

Any poem found by the American prison guards was confiscated and usually destroyed, the former prisoners say. According to Mr. Falkoff, most of the poetry he is aware of was written by prisoners who had not written poetry before being arrested.

The obstacles meant that prisoners like Mr. Begg composed their poems without any real hope that they would ever have an audience outside the prison. “I never thought my words would leave Guantanamo, but I wrote them anyway,” Mr. Begg said in an email. “Like a message in a bottle.”

Humiliated in Shackles.

When I heard pigeons cooing in the trees,
Hot tears covered my face.

When the lark chirped, my thoughts composed
A message for my son.

Mohammad, I am afflicted.
In my despair, I have no one but Allah for comfort.

The oppressors are playing with me,
As they move freely around the world.

They ask me to spy on my countrymen,
Claiming it would be a good deed.

They offer me money and land,
And freedom to go where I please.

Their temptations seize
My attention like lightning in the sky.

But their gift is an empty snake,
Carrying hypocrisy in its mouth like venom,

They have monuments to liberty
And freedom of opinion, which is well and good.

But I explained to them that
Architecture is not justice.

America, you ride on the backs of orphans,
And terrorize them daily.

Bush, beware.
The world recognizes an arrogant liar.

To Allah I direct my grievance and my tears.
I am homesick and oppressed.

Mohammad, do not forget me.
Support the cause of your father, a God-fearing man.

I was humiliated in the shackles.
How can I now compose verses? How can I now write?

After the shackles and the nights and the suffering and the tears,
How can I write poetry?

My soul is like a roiling sea, stirred by anguish,
Violent with passion.

I am a captive, but the crimes are my captors’.
I am overwhelmed with apprehension.

Lord, unite me with my son Mohammad.
Lord, grant success to the righteous.

– Sami al Haj

Copyright © University of Iowa Press. Used with permission.

Martin Mubanga, a British citizen who was released from Guantanamo Bay in 2005, says writing the poetry was a helpful release. “You had all of this anger and frustration that would build up, and poetry was a way of getting it out of you,” says Mr. Mubanga, who had been accused of plotting attacks on Jewish targets in New York. “It was a way of staying sane.”

Many of the poems are explicitly religious, beseeching Allah to free their authors or relieve the authors’ loneliness. “Oh, God,” writes Abdulla Thani Faris al Anazi, a double amputee who has been imprisoned since 2002, “Grant serenity to a heart that beats with oppression/And release this prisoner from the tight bonds of confinement.” He is accused of being an Islamic militant.

Others are sentimental. The poetry of Osama Abu Kabir, a Jordanian relief worker arrested in Afghanistan and accused of belonging to al Qaeda, expresses his dreams of being reunited with his family.

“To be with my children, each a part of me/to be with my wife and the ones I love/to be with my parents, my world’s tenderest hearts,” he writes. “I dream to be home, to be free from this cage.”

Most of the poems carry political messages denouncing the Bush administration. “America, you ride on backs of orphans/and terrorize them daily,” writes Mr. Haj, the al-Jazeera cameraman accused of supporting al Qaeda. “I am a captive, but the crimes are my captors’.”

U.S. authorities explained why the military has been slow to declassify the poems in a June 2006 letter to one of Mr. Falkoff’s colleagues. “Poetry…presents a special risk, and DOD standards are not to approve the release of any poetry in its original form or language,” it said. The military says poetry is harder to vet than conventional letters because allusions and imagery in poetry that seem innocent can be used to convey coded messages to other militants.

The letter told defense lawyers to translate any works they wanted to release publicly into English and then submit the translations to the government for review.

The strict security arrangements governing anything written by Guantanamo Bay inmates meant that Mr. Falkoff had to use linguists with secret-level security clearances rather than translators who specialize in poetry. The resulting translations, Mr. Falkoff writes in the book, “cannot do justice to the subtlety and cadences of the originals.”

For the military, even some of the translations appeared to go too far. Mr. Falkoff says it rejected three of the five translated poems he submitted, along with a dozen others submitted by his colleagues.

Cmdr. Gordon says he doesn’t know how many poems were rejected but adds that the military “absolutely” remains concerned that poetry could be used to pass coded messages to other militants.

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June 20, 2007

my heart just snapped.

Filed under: hotel chelsea, news — admin @ 1:37 pm

Haven for arts, Chelsea Hotel sold to hotel chain

 THE New York hotel that inspired writers and artists from Mark Twain to Sid Vicious has removed the longtime manager who nurtured their sanctuary, raising concern about the future of an institution.

The Chelsea Hotel, where artists like Christo toiled before becoming famous, is about to get a renovation.

But Stanley Bard will no longer be in charge.

Mr Bard, one of three longtime owners, was ousted by his partners in a board vote last week, though he may stay on as adviser.

The partners chose to replace him with BD Hotels, a large hotel management firm that vows to preserve the hotel’s charm while upgrading its wiring, plumbing and mechanical functions.

“It’s emotional for me and somewhat painful. I spent 50 years creating something,” said 73 -year-old Mr Bard, who started at the 12-floor, 250-room hotel in 1955.

“There’s something in the walls. There’s something here that I feel is very important to protect,” he said.

It was Mr Bard who decided which struggling artists deserved a break on the rent and welcomed the hippies and punks who were rejected elsewhere. He never minded when artists sloshed their paints on the walls and floors of their studio apartments.

“It’s a crazy place with really sane people in it,” said artist Robert Lambert, a five-year resident whose canvases crowd his fifth-floor room.

“Stanley Bard is the conductor.”

A partial list of those who stayed there includes Twain, Sir Arthur Clarke, Stanley Kubrick, Arthur Miller, Andy Warhol, Dylan Thomas, Tennessee Williams and Jane Fonda.

The hotel charges between $US285 ($337) and $US785 a night but also reserves rooms for permanent residents.

Their artwork adorns the halls, where the smell of marijuana has been known to drift.

The new managers hope to reach an agreement so Mr Bard can remain as the face of the place where punk rocker Sid Vicious of the Sex Pistols killed his girlfriend Nancy Spungen in 1978 and where Bob Dylan, according to his own lyrics, wrote Sad-Eyed Lady of the Lowlands.

“We would love to work with Stanley. He is the heart of the Chelsea,” said Ira Drukier, one of the principals of BD Hotels.

Mr Drukier said the new management would still be liberal with artists struggling to pay the rent, but that improvements were needed.

“You should be able to switch from your computer to your blow dryer without all the circuits blowing out.”

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another in the arsenal of baffling things

Filed under: arsenal of baffle — admin @ 11:11 am

The etiquette of the office bathroom has become the latest “huh?” in my mental arsenal of baffling things. 

I’ve voiced my concern to several friends and acquaintances, and now I post it here.  The concern pertains to the women’s bathroom, one particular stall.  It is the stall farthest from the door, the stall notoriously known for being the most spacious.  It is the stall for those with a disability that prevents them from using a regular stall with ease. 

For whatever reason, office workers insist on using this stall for the dropping of the deuce.  It is the farthest from the door and therefore, I suppose, the most polite place to do the business.  Personally, I don’t get it.  Didn’t they read the book? Everybody poops!  This includes elephants and mice.  It’s okay if you gotta go.  Just go.  It’s okay if it stinks. That’s normal.  Make use of the courtesy flush if the embarassment of a bowel movement in a public restroom is overwhelming.  Office toilets flush so fast anyway–you could successfully courtesy flush as bookends to the deed, and one in the middle if necessary.  Or, do what some of the ladies do–enter the stall to do your business, and then remain completely still and quiet until everyone else leaves the restroom.  As soon as you are alone, poop like the wind.  Faster than the wind, even.  If someone enters, pause.  It’s a sort of camode chameleon.  I am equally confused by this phenomenon.

However, if you have brains, just go.  For the love of goodness, just do your business, flush(it still kills me that people forget this part of the deal), wash the digits and get on with your day.  It really is just that simple. Nobody cares, really, they don’t. 

This is what concerns me:  the abuse of the handicap stall.  Why do office women insist on dropping the deuces here, and only here?  My concern lies with those in the same building, on the same floor who use the same bathroom, who actually USE the handicap stall.  Not only do they use it, but they NEED to use it, because the other stalls are not suited for their needs.  I think it’s downright rude to constantly be dumping in the only stall that some workers can use.  Real nice.  If I had a disability and I could only use the handicap stall, I would be pissed off about the constant potential stinkage.

I am guily of using the roomiest stall for other purposes–two times a day during the week, it is my phone booth.  I ride the bike into work and this is the easiest, most spacious place for me to change into my business casual and get on with it.  I don’t piddle around in there–I get dressed, I get out, done and done.  And my deuce droppage?  Done in the first stall(my slight form of protest), or whichever one is available if that one is occupied.   

I know, perhaps it is a silly thing to baffle me, but it does!  I’m concerned with how timid and sheepish grown women are about these natural occurances.  I’m concerned, but not surprised.  I would not have brought it up, but this morning I did my change thing in the last stall and noticed that someone had put a can of air freshener in there, next to the toilet dispenser.  Proof to my theory that others are treating this as their throne of droppage.  I wish I could explain how close I am to hanging a sign in there that says “Please crap in the other stalls available to you, you inconsiderate, selfish, scared little dumpers.  No one’s shit smells like roses.  Get over it.”

And speaking of crap,  I do not like Hillary Clinton’s little Sopranos-spoofing campaign ad/commercial about choosing a campaign song.  Horrible. 

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June 19, 2007

know your rights.

Filed under: know your rights, news — admin @ 11:11 am

just like she did.

NYC Woman Arrested on Topless Stroll Accepts $29,000 From City to Settle Civil Rights Lawsuit

A woman arrested for exposing her breasts has accepted a $29,000 settlement from the city, her lawyer said.

Jill Coccaro, 27, was arrested on a topless stroll two years ago, despite a 1992 state appeals court ruling that concluded women should have the same right as men to take off their shirts.

Coccaro, who now goes by the name Phoenix Feeley, remained in custody for 12 hours before she was told prosecutors were not going to pursue charges.

Her attorney, Jeffrey Rothman, told the Daily News that his client won the civil rights settlement from the city, which did not admit or deny wrongdoing.

“We hope the police learn a lesson and respect the rights of women to go topless,” Rothman said.

Feeley told the New York Post that she was not treated well after her Aug. 4, 2005, arrest in Manhattan’s Lower East Side section. She claimed in an October lawsuit that a police officer yanked her out of a patrol car by her hair and police took her to a hospital for a psychiatric evaluation.

She told the newspaper she had gone bare-breasted after running the 2004 city marathon without police bothering her.

“I’ve always just felt that was something natural,” Feeley said of going topless. “I’ve kind of always done it out of practicality.”

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June 14, 2007

06.06.07

Filed under: photo, music — admin @ 5:53 pm

Smiling Moose

flash darlings

fdfacedrums
The Flash Darlings, from Pittsburgh.

crimson sweet
Crimson Sweet, from NYC.

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June 13, 2007

daughter of a southpaw.

Filed under: family, photo — admin @ 3:41 pm

my twin

That’s my dad, at age thirteen or fourteen.  There’s another picture of him standing like this, but hiding his eyes.  It cracks me up every time–to think, even dad had one of those phases when posing for pictures was torture.  This is  pretty much what I would look like with no hair.

So now I’m 26, and my father is 56, which means at the age of thirty, he was cradling a newborn while keeping one eye on my sister, aka the three year old.  I still feel like a little kid when I get in my dad’s truck and he switches it to the oldies station.  I grew up in Ohio listening to 103.5, and 98% of the time I can ask my dad “who sings this one?” and get a prompt answer.  Now he’s a grandfather.  Now we ride back to the house on Wehr Road once a month when he picks me up at the Greyhound station.  We still look alike.  There’s a line in the Popeye movie that we still quote to one another.  In the scene where Popeye’s father is not convinced that his son is indeed his son, Popeye says, “We’ve got the same squinty eye!”  His father responds with, “What squinty eye?!”  Within five minutes of reuniting, my dad will throw the line to me and on cue, I answer. 

 It doesn’t get any easier..living five hours from him and my sister.  My dad wasn’t just my dad.  He’s been my mom, my best friend, my #1 fan in the stands at all soccer games and track meets.  We took a spinning class together a couple months ago, and midway through he reached over to wipe his sweat on my arm.  I get the goofy from him.  On Mother’s Day, I dial his number first.  When I feel like I can’t handle the simple mundane tasks of getting through the week, I know I can call him.  I know that he’ll listen.  I know that he’ll mention a moment in his life when he felt the same way.  I know it will pass, but to hear him say it me makes it much more believeable.   

 Sunday is Father’s Day and of course there will be a phone call coming his way.  I won’t be home to say it in person but I know he understands.  He has always been a champ when it comes to letting me go, even if he doesn’t want to.   Even if it’s hard to watch, hard to understand.  It must be crazy–to know how fucked up this world and things can be but still you have to let the little ones figure it out for themselves. 

 I could not have lived this long without his presence, support, love, and respect.  I’m the daughter of a southpaw. I’m the daughter of a man who can ride the bike all day.  I’m the daughter of the guy with the same squinty eye.  I’m the daughter of the most amazing person I’ve ever, ever known.

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