February 27, 2010

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melting off the back porch

Have you ever felt the ground start to tilt, a signal of a moodiness coming? If it is to be compared to anything,
then compare it to a storm approaching–the kind you can watch roll right in and blow through trees one at a time. A
marching line of rustle and bending, a choreographed movement of prayer and submission–it’s a fight between eerie
and beautiful. I compare it to that, some approaching blues or sadness.

So I’ve been a little “off” this week, a loneliness I haven’t had the energy nor desire to fight. It’s okay. I enjoy feeling,
you know. Which is the irony of dealing with chronic pain and depression–life is learning a dance between relishing
and loathing this thing I crave called feeling. Today was the day that all preparation of approaching
sadness came to use, as I crashed and crashed hard. I’ve shuffled a worngroove from bed to couch to bed to couch to
bed again. I drifted off again and again and felt damn well delirious at one point, bouncing from dream to dream as if I
was simply looking through a stack of photographs. All of them were sadness. When awake I sat there with them
weighing on my body, a sort of sagging in the heart. This feels like the most of it–the storm has wandered offto the
left and I’m coming up like out of water.

A necessary day, but a wasted one nonetheless. I’m ready for so many things. I’m ready for a new week and a better
mood(less lonely, more focus), more writing–lately that’s all I want to do(I want to sink my life into a pot of ink–want
to be the feather end dipping in, the words coming out in beats of three and dripping wet. If not writing, then what?
Then nothing). I’m ready for more melting, the slow dip and climbing tease of temperature, more soon-coming spring.
Finished revolving around the release, as letting go is not a stagnant stage(and I cannot be slowly opening a palm
forever). It’s time to forward. Shake feathers dry. Be light.

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November 9, 2009

bitter tears.

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The following is an incredible article from salon.com about Johnny Cash:


The bitter tears of Johnny Cash
The untold story of Johnny Cash, protest singer and Native American activist, and his feud with the music industry

Cash contacted Ira Hayes’ mother and then visited her and her family at the Pima reservation in Arizona.
Before Cash left the Pima Reservation, Hayes’ mother presented him with a gift, a smooth black translucent stone. The
Pima call it an “Apache tear.” The legend behind the opaque volcanic black glass is rooted in the last U.S. cavalry attack
on Native people, which took place on Apaches in the state of Arizona. After the slaughter, the soldiers refused to allow
the Apache women to put the dead up on stilts, a sacred Apache tradition. Legend says that overcome by intense
grief, Apache women shed tears for the first time ever, and the tears that fell to the earth turned black. Cash, moved by
the gift, polished the stone and mounted it on a gold chain.

With the Apache tear draped around his neck, Cash cut his protest album. He recorded five of La Farge’s songs, two of his
own, and one he’d co-written with Johnny Horton. All were Native American themed. “When we went back into the studio
to record what became ‘Bitter Tears,’” Cash bassist Marshall Grant says, “we could see that John really had a special feeling
for this record and these songs.”

Yet the album’s first single, “Ira Hayes,” went nowhere. Few radio stations would play the song. Was the length of the song,
four minutes and seven seconds, the problem? Radio stations liked three-minute tracks. Or maybe disc jockeys wanted
Cash to “entertain, not educate,” as one Columbia exec put it.

click here to read.

October 28, 2009

i remember you well…

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My dear friend Gina sent this to me. Damn.

September 13, 2009

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jim carroll died.

September 6, 2009

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August 24, 2009

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i’d bang it all day

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The Breeders, August 22nd. Ferris snapped this photo & I’m posting it because it’s way less blurry than mine.

Yep, went to see the Breeders on Saturday night. I kept staring at Kim and thinking, My friend Angi watched Buffy with you. Kelley Deal’s shirt boasted a picture of a banana riding a bicycle. You can’t really top that. This felt like coming home. I thought back to listening to Last Splash on cassette in junior high, hanging out at my grandmother’s house. I used to play “Roi” and “Do You Love Me Now” over and over and(yes) over again. Their original bass player, Josephine Wiggs, played with them–she’s doing a couple dates of the tour which is just insanely awesome. I swooned big time for her. Here’s Josephine on part of “Metal Man,” from Saturday’s show(I did not record this, and the sound isn’t perfect but you get the idea):

So yes. A wise, wise decision to see the Breeders

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August 5, 2009

bell, incognito

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thanks to renee for sending this to me. the article is from 2 years ago, but i find it quite inspiring. artists of all mediums need to explore more of this.
from the washington post:

Pearls Before Breakfast
Can one of the nation’s great musicians cut through the fog of a D.C. rush hour? Let’s find out.

By Gene Weingarten
Washington Post Staff Writer
Sunday, April 8, 2007; Page W10

HE EMERGED FROM THE METRO AT THE L’ENFANT PLAZA STATION AND POSITIONED HIMSELF AGAINST A WALL BESIDE A TRASH BASKET. By most measures, he was nondescript: a youngish white man in jeans, a long-sleeved T-shirt and a Washington Nationals baseball cap. From a small case, he removed a violin. Placing the open case at his feet, he shrewdly threw in a few dollars and pocket change as seed money, swiveled it to face pedestrian traffic, and began to play.

It was 7:51 a.m. on Friday, January 12, the middle of the morning rush hour. In the next 43 minutes, as the violinist performed six classical pieces, 1,097 people passed by. Almost all of them were on the way to work, which meant, for almost all of them, a government job. L’Enfant Plaza is at the nucleus of federal Washington, and these were mostly mid-level bureaucrats with those indeterminate, oddly fungible titles: policy analyst, project manager, budget officer, specialist, facilitator, consultant.

Each passerby had a quick choice to make, one familiar to commuters in any urban area where the occasional street performer is part of the cityscape: Do you stop and listen? Do you hurry past with a blend of guilt and irritation, aware of your cupidity but annoyed by the unbidden demand on your time and your wallet? Do you throw in a buck, just to be polite? Does your decision change if he’s really bad? What if he’s really good? Do you have time for beauty? Shouldn’t you? What’s the moral mathematics of the moment?

On that Friday in January, those private questions would be answered in an unusually public way. No one knew it, but the fiddler standing against a bare wall outside the Metro in an indoor arcade at the top of the escalators was one of the finest classical musicians in the world, playing some of the most elegant music ever written on one of the most valuable violins ever made. His performance was arranged by The Washington Post as an experiment in context, perception and priorities — as well as an unblinking assessment of public taste: In a banal setting at an inconvenient time, would beauty transcend?

The musician did not play popular tunes whose familiarity alone might have drawn interest. That was not the test. These were masterpieces that have endured for centuries on their brilliance alone, soaring music befitting the grandeur of cathedrals and concert halls.

The acoustics proved surprisingly kind. Though the arcade is of utilitarian design, a buffer between the Metro escalator and the outdoors, it somehow caught the sound and bounced it back round and resonant. The violin is an instrument that is said to be much like the human voice, and in this musician’s masterly hands, it sobbed and laughed and sang — ecstatic, sorrowful, importuning, adoring, flirtatious, castigating, playful, romancing, merry, triumphal, sumptuous.

So, what do you think happened? (more…)

July 28, 2009

“…i’m all grown & i don’t feel so different”

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“Boredom” by LoveLikeFire

July 24, 2009

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Thanks to the creative minds I know, I pass this along:

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