honeydunce

I keep spelling mustache wrong. Moustache. Mouse Stache? MUH-stash.
Lately I smile at strangers.
Halfway through spin class tonight, the instructor turned off most of the lights. Sprinting in the dark, the swarmlike hum of our collective fly wheels.
I printed out my entire book so that I can hang poems around the writing room and pace/fret/pace/fret […]

It goes back. Way back. Past the butcher paper tracings of our bodies in elementary class. Before the infamous “ain’t ain’t a word” argument of ‘88. Before the blood on Halloween at ten and a half. Before the first kiss, first swig, first burst through curfew, too early for my interests. Always after that experience […]

tree in frick park
Being sick for the past 2 weeks does, in fact, have its advantages. Very very tiny, strange advantages but there they are nonetheless. One is a change of perspective. Exhaustion and congestion ruled my days so I had no choice but to take it down about two or three or five notches. […]

I don’t talk about my depression and anxiety very much. I’m open with only a few close friends, and even that comes with a certain kind of quiet. It is something I never want to mention, even though I loathe the stigma that comes with mental health. My own mind bewilders me, can get lost […]

For the past few weeks, I’ve been working with cognitive therapy. Here’s a simple way to put it:I’m learning to change my thought process, to work myself out of the well-worn grooves of negative thought. I’m goingto be honest and tell you that I’m not very good at it. Not yet. It’s kind of like […]

My last dose of Paxil, one year ago yesterday.

Two important anniversaries coming up next month.October 2nd marks my 7th year living in Pittsburgh. Seven years! The kneejerk comment to that is, of course: I can’t believe it. I can’t believe I moved here at the age of twenty. Oh, that means it’s been seven years since I owned a car. Sweet. I wonder […]

Woke to my cat leaning back dreaming on the pillow next to me. Of catnip and tiny custom cabbie hats, I’m sure.
Coasting over the bridge, the sun kept defiant back to me. Two wheels cut the shades of shadow into rotary dials and wind bit and pulled saline from eyes. There is something brave about […]

U.S. Paxil probe broadens
June 20, 2008
By Tracy Staton
More government watchdogs appear to be boarding the Paxil investigation train. The Justice Department is coordinating a probe that includes Colorado’s Justice folks and the Boston U.S. attorney’s office. GlaxoSmithKline had already disclosed the Colorado investigation and confirmed the rest in today’s Wall Street Journal. Investigators are […]