honeydunce

tree in frick park
Being sick for the past 2 weeks does, in fact, have its advantages. Very very tiny, strange advantages but there they are nonetheless. One is a change of perspective. Exhaustion and congestion ruled my days so I had no choice but to take it down about two or three or five notches. […]

I’ve been keeping a photo-journal of my migraines for a couple years now. It is one of those private things. It is a catalogue of erratic–some migraines simply do not allow for the time it takes to snap a shot, even if it only takes a moment. A lot of episodes are missed. Most of […]

I started going to acupuncture a few weeks ago. I’m still new to it, only a few sessions under my belt. After my first session, I walked out of there feeling more relaxed than I have in years. Since I can actively remember. The feeling lasted for a few days. A little taste of normalcy. […]

the new pillow.
Makeshift midnight in the midafternoon
is my first time on the new pillow.
Promises on the package like
Firm,
for back-sleepers and side-sleepers,
yet beneath neck
another miracle made of flames,
the vice of nothing, the vice of air, the vice in vice.
My hands slither in position, numb paws
palms pressed against the underbelly of this purchase,
wish for […]

Well, it’s been a strange week. I wasn’t really here, or there(or anywhere! the Seuss in me wants to shriek). Somewhere in between. A half-piece of film onscreen, some drifty thing, all limbs singing auto-pilot. Migraine, a migraine after that. A one day break, a migraine after that. Apparently I rolled off the wrong side […]

I was seven years old when I had my first migraine. A hazy image of playing in the drive way, and my stepfather spraying a weed chemical around the edge of the house. The smell of it entered me, and stayed.
I can see unbearable bus rides home from school, and afternoons spent in […]

“Migraines are not, I think, explicitly spiritual events. But the only way I outlasted my migraines without at least temporary derangement was to accept a lesson that mimics the spiritual so closely that the difference scarcely matters and mya, in fact, not be difference at all. And that lesson is, when it comes to […]

My doctor called me back today with the results on my blood work. He said, “You’re cholesterol looks wonderful.” Count is strong, thyroid is fine. Apparently, my blood looks great. He definitely heard the defeated sigh that accompanied my thank you. I’m truly thankful that the blood work is looking good. I am. But you […]

After work today I’m going to go home and find something to break.
I did not think I could feel any worse about having a chronic illness. After a morning spent crying at my desk and in the bathroom at work, I see that I was wrong.
So after 4:30pm I’m going to find somewhere to […]

I’m awake. After hours of a manmade sleep. It is like going to bed in an actual bed and waking up on a piece of driftwood in the middle of the sea. You know, drifting. I couldn’t make a fist when I first woke up. Now I can.
I woke up with a migraine and tried […]