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“Migraines are not, I think, explicitly spiritual events. But the only way I outlasted my migraines without
at least temporary derangement was to accept a lesson that mimics the spiritual so closely that the difference
scarcely matters and mya, in fact, not be difference at all. And that lesson is, when it comes to mind and matter,
the windows really are wide open, the wind really is whipping the shutters, and the doors, in fact, are blown clean
off. Most of the time, I’m in charge. I can’t avoid that. But if God or the central nervous system wants to punch
me in the side of the face…there’s nothing I can do about, nothing I want to do about it, nothing left to do but
gape at the wonder of it all. That is the migrainy worldview: the migraines scour you, humble you, then they
make you all dreamy and a sensation junkie, stuck in an imminent future tense always a little more alive than
you ever desired, a memorable place if not a beautiful one, a place to bulild, if one can buld castles in air…”
- Andrew Levy, A Brain Wider than the Sky